I wish I was a blogger...

If only you knew how many times I have started this blog in my head. It never fails, either, every time I mentally write it I start it to the melody of "I Wish" by Skee-Lo. You know, the old rap song from the mid 90s that goes like this: 

I wish I was a little bit taller
I wish I was a baller
I wish I had a girl who looked good I would call her

This blog has been a long time coming. 

And finally, here I am, putting what is in my head into something someone can actually read. I am opening a door for you right now; a door into the crazy dome of my mind and I am inviting you in just as much for my sake as for yours. I am letting you in on a super huge secret that I tried to hide even from myself for most of my life: I'm a hot mess and I've said my share of "I wish I was..." only to never follow-through or measure-up. 

Here's what finally motivated the beginning of this blog:
On November 1st, 2013 I was in Hillsboro, KS at the Kathy Troccoli conference "Hope's Alive". As I sat there soaking it all in, I got that feeling. You know, THAT feeling. The feeling of something stirring inside of you, of your senses waking up, of warmth touching the places in you that had turned cold and hard at some point over the last however many days or even years. THAT feeling. The feeling that I would argue is the movement of The Holy Spirit IN YOU. 

So there I am and I sense The Spirit of The Living God, the God of the universe reaching out and speaking directly to me, calling me to action. In response to this amazing feeling I started doing what I always do. I started "blogging" in my head. I started mentally typing and 'sharing' what I was experiencing. And I knew. I just knew: God wanted me to start blogging and he wanted me to call it "confessions of the inadequate". (wow, thanks God, now THAT's affirming) I kid. I kid. God was inviting me to tell the stories of my weakness and bring glory to His Name: he wanted me to confess to the world my great inadequacies made sufficient only by Him. 

So right there, on November 1st 'Confessions of the Inadequate' was born. Granted, In true Sara Jo fashion I wouldn't start actually working on the blog until a couple weeks into December {and then not mess with the blog again for TEN MONTHS}, but God gave me the direction, and even the title, on that first night. And I'm actually following through. I'm actually doing it.

So that's why I am here. That's why I am blogging. 

I'm not blogging to build a fan club, though that would be fun and cool. 
I'm not blogging because I am so awesome it. 
I'm blogging because I believe that sharing stories in raw honesty is good for the soul who shares them and good for the soul who relates. Maybe just once someone is going to read something I write and be able to let out a deep sigh of relief or feel inspired to do something they've always wanted to, or maybe even just have the good cry they need. And even if no one ever reads it, it will be good for me. Good for me to stop writing blogs just in my head and actually put the pen to paper. (or fingers to the keyboard)

There is only one rule for those reading this blog and that is this: no comparing. We have got to break free from the culture that measures self-worth by comparing people to one another. We are all different; all uniquely made, uniquely gifted, and uniquely inadequate. 

So no comparing. 

Relating? Yes. Comparing? Never. 

You got it? Good. Then break loose the chains and let the confessions commence. 

I hope you're ready for this. I sure am.